Who's Holding Your Mirror?

In our darkest hours, we often draw our strength and inspiration from the most unusual sources. We are lucky if the answers to the universe appear to us in the form of an epiphany; yet we are perplexed when a mirror is held to our faces, revealing our true identity and forsaken pathways. But, who is holding this mirror for us?

Without sounding preachy or steering the topic towards religion, I personally believe God makes this possible, as He does all things. I believe He uses every tool in His arsenal to show us our light. For me, this light came in the form of a man.

I was in the midst of running from my problems (doing a really good job of it in fact), searching for entertainment on a popular website. I came across a young man singing, his voice so fascinating to me, I was unable to turn away. However, it was more than that. It was like he had a glow about him, somewhat regal, not pretentious, yet all encompassing. He was definitely an attractive man, yet it was more than that. There was an inner beauty that shone so brightly, it could be witnessed on the exterior. I continued to watch. I was intrigued. He was so humble about his gifts, his beauty, and his talent. I had to know more.

We exchanged comments and messages, and somehow I felt different. I saw myself in him. I saw all that I was, and started to wonder: where did that woman go?
He was not afraid to share his gift with others. He did not seek validation from the masses. He just loved to sing. If you wanted to listen, he wanted to please you. If not…. Oh well.

I was inspired. I started to remember the things that once brought me joy, such as music and art. I started relishing the things I used to do, like writing poetry, designing, sewing and doing hair. I felt young. I felt opened to whatever God and the universe had in store for me. I wasn’t going to let my age dictate that I fit a certain mold any longer. I could be funny, fun-loving, and carefree. I could sing, dance, just do whatever.
I was reintroduced to…..me.

I dedicate this to my new friend and inspiration, Jairus. Thank you for holding up my mirror.

-CLH